All of that drama is coming to a close now, and I hope my brother spends a lot of time in prison, as cruel as that sounds. Maybe he can get clean behind bars.
In all of this stress, I've busied myself with home improvement projects and shuffling around furniture and figure out what items to sell or donate. A downsize/purge feels so wonderfully therapeutic right now!
And in all of this, there was a good thing that happened... I finally managed to get in touch with my estranged sister. I wanted to warn her, just in case our younger brother decided to try to move in with her, so that she knew exactly what the situation was (he is a liar and won't be honest about addiction), and it's unfortunate that it took family tragedy to close the 10 year gap between us. Yes, we haven't spoken in a decade (long story with a lot of hurt feelings), but we were able to discuss our families, share some photos, and how we both agree out little brother needs to spend some time in prison, that none of us should be trying to help him avoid legal consequences. It is relieving to know I'm not being heartless here. (My sister, for those of you are in the DYT community, is a Type 2 and if SHE is advocating for tough love, you know it's serious!)
Anyway, I'm ready to heal myself and my family, as we were all very impacted by this.
The first part of my self-care is, and always has been, just getting out of bed and putting on clothes. Not going to lie, I spent a lot of the past week in freaking pajamas and stretchy pants, and just eating whatever I could microwave if I even ate at all (I did cook for the kids, but just had zero appetite myself), and I probably nervously drank about 87 cups of tea and coffee this past week. I had home improvement projects to keep my nervous, anxiety-ridden energy occupied at least. Does anyone else do that? Dive in to a bunch of projects just to be DOING something when you feel like you can't DO things to help or change a situation? So you just find SOMETHING you can help or change? (Just saying, my laundry room is totally redone and unrecognizable now.)
When mixing 3 different patterns like this, SCALE becomes paramount. Notice that I have large scale, medium scale, and a very small scale pattern all going on here. I made sure that the patterns were all very different sizes, and also different themselves. We've got floral lace embroidery, polka dots, and buffalo check going on. To keep it from being a total eyesore, I stuck to a black and white color scheme. With this many patterns, keeping the color minimal makes it more wearable and not over the top.
Here's what I wore:
- Pants: 7 for all Mankind
- Vest: Rag & Bone
- Shirt: Cat & Jack (yes, the children's section of Target)
- Tie: Express
- Blazer: Elizabeth & James
- Shoes: Modcloth
Here's to Monday, the beginning of a new week, and for some of us, a new start!
See you tomorrow, and thanks for being here!