I have electricity again! (If you follow the Mostly Petite Me facebook page, I mentioned the power outage). Today marks the the beginning of the BIRTHDAY SEASON. That's right, I have commandeered the entire month of February (pronounced with TWO FREAKIN' Rs, by the way, like LIBRARY's two Rs are pronounced, and if you disagree, you can fight me). Anyway, I have decided that the whole month is devoted to self-indulgence and self-celebration of myself.
In the past, that usually meant way too much shopping, way too much wine, way too much... stuff.
This year, I am going to do the exact opposite (except that there will still be wine because I am on the hook for a wine club I joined). I am NOT going to shop and buy a whole bunch of stuff I don't need. Tomorrow, my birthday, is Day One of #NoBuy365, where I refuse to buy the thing that brings me the biggest amount of fake-happiness: clothing and all things fashion-related.
I know there is a lot of baggage I have in my life that have been showing up in my spending habits and the way I accumulate things and how much of my own self-worth and feelings of success are tied up in STUFF, and I am tired of chasing that feeling, a feeling I can't buy no matter how much I try. And trust me, I have really tried, and I have the credit card statements to prove it.
As you know, I have had a pretty bad week after being the victim of attack that I am still a bit in shock over. I am physically okay, and I'd like to thank those of you who privately reached out to me. I don't always feel like I have people I can talk to about really difficult life circumstances. Thank you for respecting my privacy while things get legally looked into (hence why I am reluctant to share too many public details). I don't know most of you in real life, but don't think that what you say is without importance to me. It matters.
Tomorrow will be the beginning of some major changes. If nothing else, I'll feel in better control over my finances. Maybe I'll have more space in my closet. In my house. I'll learn, hopefully, how to be happy with what I already have, and see that it's all enough. And maybe I'll learn something about myself in the process. Maybe I'll clear out a lot of the junk in my life and in my head.
Disclaimer, so you know I'm not cheating on #NoBuy365: I expect that, because people know me, I'll still receive the occasional gift that is fashion-related. I can't really help what other people do, but I will control the spending on my end. And if I screw this up, you can all take me to task for it. I want to be held accountable!
A very merry groundhog's birthday to me! I am choosing to be optimistic and it is much harder than it should be.